little leftover sadness...

  Our class trip to Barcelona was so nice, I already miss that feeling.

  To be honest - I'm currently out of school. I can't help being annoyed that I had to fail. 

  And somehow, there is a lot holding me back at the moment. I should be

  looking for a job in France right now, to improve my skills, so that I can repeat the exam

  successfully. But my current state of mind is a shambles, my sister is in mental care, my mother

  always ill & hurting. I just feel like breaking free - but I admit I'm a little scared.